| I don't know |
[Mar. 18th, 2010|11:16 am] |
I can't get back into the swing of things. It used to be hard for my to eat up to 1500 calories but now it's hard for me to stay under that. I don't know what happened. I've been really busy and stressed out lately, there's only a month and a half left of school and there's so many important things that need doing before then. I've been so depressed and stressed out lately and counting calories, for some reason, makes me feel like a mental patient now. I haven't been working out over the past few days and I've gained two pounds. What's the point of losing it if it will be so easy to gain back.I can't maintain this neurotic obsession with food for the rest of my life... maybe I can, but my friends and family make it so hard. It's funny, when I have a real problem that I want them to pay attention to they don't have the time, but when I'm doing something I want to do they have all the time in the world to knit pick and find fault with it.
I don't know what I'll do. I 'm probably just going to focus on maintaining until school is over. I have so much more to think about right now. It would just be nice to not have the constant fear of losing control of my weight hanging over my head. It's like I need to constantly be focused on losing weight if I just wan tot avoid gaining weight. It's not fair. |
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| Day 21 |
[Mar. 18th, 2010|09:29 am] |
food - 1/2
water 2/2
exercise - 2/2
posting 2/2
daily challenge - 2/2
total: 9/10
21/9/153 |
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| 1/0/7 |
[Mar. 18th, 2010|01:28 am] |
Food - 2
Water - 1
Exercise - 0
Journaling/Posting - 2
Daily Self Esteem Challenge - 2
Total: 7/10 |
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| 17/--/146 |
[Mar. 18th, 2010|12:02 am] |
f: 2
w: 2
e: 2
c: 2
p: 2
total: 10 woo hoo! |
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| Twenty sixth day of challenge |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|09:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thirsty | ] |
Food - 2/2 estimate of 683 calories
Water - 2/2
Exercise - 2/2 worked out for 3 hours
Journaling/Posting - 2/2 yepp
Daily Self Esteem Challenge - 2/2 i typed up a few resumes, filled in my "28 day plan notebook" and replied to some comments |
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| day 2 |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|04:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  okay | ] |
f: 1/2
w: 2/2
e: 0/2
p: 2/2
se: 2/2
no binge but purged :/ sooooo only 1 point for this one...
2/1/13 |
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| Day 17 |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|11:51 pm] |
Food 2/2 -
Water 2/2 -
Exercise 2/2 -
Journaling/Posting 2/2
Daily Self Esteem Challenge 0/2
Starting Weight: 126,5lbs - 57,3kg
CW: 122,1lbs - 55,4kg
Goal: 120lbs - 54,5kg
17/ -4,4lbs/ 122 |
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| day 9 |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|02:22 pm] |
F: 2/2
W: 2/2
E: 2/2
C:2/2
P: 2/2
10/10/\
9/--/79:90 |
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| need to fast |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|03:26 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | living room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dr.phil | ] |
I used to post here daily but in the last year I have sort of switched from being mostly ana to being almost completely mia. I need to start fasting. Anyone else starting a fast soon? |
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| Day 20 |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|10:54 am] |
food - 1/2
water 1/2
exercise - 2/2
posting 2/2
daily challenge - 2/2 - took a nice long bath and shaved everything ;)
total: 8/10
20/9/144 |
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| 28:6:264 |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|01:35 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | work | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
Day#28
F 2 400 cal day (veggie soup & cottage cheese today)
W 2
E 2
P 2
C 2 started reading a book that i had put down ages ago, (Diet for a New America by John Robbins), im definitely going to finish it this time. :) i'm about half-way through & it's all been really wonderful so far. it gets me all emo over the lil aminals tho.
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( Yadda yadda yadda... ) |
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| day 8 |
[Mar. 16th, 2010|09:06 pm] |
F: 1/2 was supposed to fast... did except for 5 asperegus spears and a few crackers :(
W: 2/2
P: 2/2
C: 2/2 finally put away my laundry!!
E:2/2
9/10
8/--/69:80 |
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| Most intense sexual experience |
[Mar. 16th, 2010|05:13 pm] |
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Basically I want to hear stories about your most intense and passionate moments in the bedroom (or out of it). |
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| premature ejaculation. and when i say premature...i mean PREMATURE. |
[Mar. 16th, 2010|10:40 am] |
hey guys...i have an empty account for privacy reasons. this question is something that's been on my mind for quite some time now. i checked the memories but this seems to be a little different than what was there.
my boyfriend and i have been having sex for about 4 months. he told me before the first time that he was a little "quick", to use his word...i thought that meant coming after like, 4 minutes...because from my understanding, that would be the typical interpretation of coming too early.
but no...he comes after literally 10 seconds.
i think the longest we've EVER had sex is about 4 minutes...that's the longest he's ever lasted. we've tried doing "exercises" to help him last longer (like stopping when he's about to come, and then starting back up again) but nothing has helped.
ultimately, the bottom line is that we have sex because we love each other and we want that intimacy with each other--but also because it's awesome and feels good! and i want it to last longer!
what do we do? i really don't want to bring it up to him too much because i don't want to hurt his feelings, but i'm starting to think maybe this is some sort of deeper medical issue...?
other information that may be relevant: our relationship is long-distance; we see each other about once or twice a month and we have sex usually twice every time we see each other. it was not long distance for the first three-ish months and we'd have sex pretty much every day.
thank you guys for any suggestions you can give me! |
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| 16/---/136 |
[Mar. 16th, 2010|09:46 pm] |
F: 2
W: 2
E: 2
C: 2, made homemade lo-cal bagels (i ironically love to cook)
P: 2
total: 10 |
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| Twenty fifth day of challenge |
[Mar. 16th, 2010|09:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sore | ] |
Food - 2/2 estimate of 445 calories
Water - 2/2
Exercise - 2/2 worked out for 3 hours
Journaling/Posting - 2/2 yepp
Daily Self Esteem Challenge - 2/2 i got acupuncture, shaved, did my eyebrows and am going to go tanning tomorrow and get my hair done (finally!) |
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| Day 16 |
[Mar. 17th, 2010|12:47 am] |
Food 2/2 -
Water 2/2 -
Exercise 2/2 -
Journaling/Posting 2/2
Daily Self Esteem Challenge 0/2
Starting Weight: 126,5lbs - 57,3kg
CW: 122,1lbs - 55,4kg
Goal: 120lbs - 54,5kg
16/ -4,4lbs/ 114 |
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| day 1 |
[Mar. 16th, 2010|10:28 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  disappointed | ] |
food: 0/2
water: 2/2
exercise: 0/2
post: 2/2
se: 2/2
*sigh i know my first day or two is usually bad, but this bad?!? hopefully today will be better..... |
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